He Is My Resurrection

Neville 06-28-1968


The gospel, which appears to be a little secular story, is truly a mystery to be known only by revelation.

In the 16th chapter of John we are told: “I came out from the Father and came into the world. Again I leave

the world and I return to the Father.” In these four short phrases we find the pre-existence of Christ, his

incarnation, his death, and his ascension. I could put this in the first person, plural sense and say: “We came

out from the Father” for we are told in the 1st chapter of Ephesians: “He chose us in him before the

foundation of the world.” So all of us were chosen in him. That is why I can say, “We came out from the

Father and came into the world. Again we are leaving the world and are going to the Father.”

How can this be? Let me use a simple analogy. A plant contains within itself the suckers which can be

removed and transplanted. While existing within the plant, the suckers partake of the plant’s life, but when

removed and transplanted they become the parent.

It was God’s purpose to give us himself, and God is a Father. The only way he could do it however was to

detach us fromhimself. Yet, like the sucker, he who sent us has never left us; therefore we must express that

which the parent plant is. If its flowers were red, that which was transplanted will bear red flowers. Now,

regardless of how healthy the stock may be, when it is transplanted it appears to die, showing us the secret of

life through death. The seed falls into the ground and dies in order to be made alive. So the seed, containing

within itself all that the parent contained, dies and is made alive to become the parent, containing within itself

that which was in the parent stock.

And so it is with us. We came out from God the Father and were planted in a world of death, a world of

mortality. Then, having died, we become quickened and grow into the parent stock, for if we were a father

before detachment, we must return as the one Father who sent us out. And everything God the Father

possesses, we possess in our fullness. His son reveals himself as our son. Whatever happened to him

happens to us, for we came out fromthe Father and came into the world. Again, as we leave the world we

go to the Father. That is the great mystery of scripture.

Let me now tell you of a vision a lady who is here tonight shared with me. She found herself viewing a very

long train ascending from a very dark cavern into which she descended. Immediately upon entering its

blackness, she imagined herself aboard the train and was instantly on it. Moving up at an incredible speed,

she wondered about her destiny, when a voice said: “It will not be long,” and she entered a world filled with

pinnacles and sparkling light. Then a triangular-shaped light penetrated her brain and she found herself

standing in front of a very tall chair upon which a great being was seated. As she gazed into his eyes she felt

herself immersed in love and in a voice so very tender he called her, “Babe.” Feeling so small and young

among these pinnacles, she said: “What shall I do?” when something exploded in her and she heard a voice

and saw the words, “Record It” appear in script before her eyes. Seeingme in the distance, she said: “That is

Neville” and the being seated in the chair began to describe me in the most endearing, possessing terms

ending with these words: “He is my resurrection.” This statement was picked up by invisible voices which

echoed and re-echoed and re-echoed all the way down through time as she awoke.

Yes, she saw the Father. I amhis resurrection. He buried himself inme as he buried himself in you before you

came out from him. Having resurrected the Father in me, I am his resurrection and know myself to be the

Father. Before coming out I did not know this. I partook of the tree of life, but I was not individualized.

There never was a time that you and I were not partaking of this tree of life, but we were not individualized.

We did not voluntarily detach ourselves and enter this world, but were made subject unto futility in the hope

that we would be set free from this body of death and obtain the glorious liberty of the sons of God. Now,

the Son of God is one with God, for the son erupts into the Father. Like the sucker which contains within

itself everything that the parent tree contains, but cannot know it until detached and transplanted, we contain

within ourselves everything the tree of life contains, but will not know it untilwe come out fromthe Father and

come into the world. Having died, death will be transformed into sleep, from which we will all awaken as

God the Father. Individually we will all have these four mighty acts erupt fromwithin to spell out the being we

really are.

In the statement: “I came out fromthe Father” the pre-existence of Christ in you, who is your hope of glory,

is established. I amnot speaking of some little man who walked the earth 2,000 years ago, but of the mystery

of Christ which is buried in every child born of woman. Christ, God’s creative power and wisdom,

pre-existed. His detachment and entrance into the world through his birth frombelow is his birth into death.

Then, after the long interval of death he is born from above into a world of life. Having come out from the

Father and coming into the world, his return to the Father is essential. He comes back bearing witness to the

fullness within himself of all that the parent contained, thereby knowing he is the Father. This is how all the

fathers return.

We are told that in the last days scoffers will come, saying: “Where is the promise of his coming? Forever

since the fathers fell asleep, all things have continued as they were from the beginning of creation.” The

scoffers do not know that a thousand years is as a day to the Lord; therefore, six days would be like 6,000

years to mortal eye. As He promised, you will return on time, not a moment before or after.

Your return begins through the impregnation by one who has awakened. He does not arbitrarily choose his

offsprings [sic]. They are called by the depth of his own being. But he is spiritually born to play the part of

siring that section of time to which he belongs, a role he did not choose but was born to play.

Now let me tell you of another vision. This lady said: “While standing at attention in a military drill, Marta and

I were called to the front where you, Neville, dressed in a long black robe, presented us each with a black

umbrella, which was opened and raised over our heads. Then you spoke profound words of eternalwisdom.

“Suddenly the scene changed and Marta and I, stillwith the umbrellas over our heads, are standing in a room,

when I said to Marta: ‘Did you understand what he said?’ and she answered: ‘No.’ Dorothy Dix then

entered the room and said: ‘I will explain it to you.’ I was so surprised with that remark that I awoke.”

The symbolism in this vision was perfect: a black robe and black umbrellas. In symbolism, black is the

incomprehensible divine silence, eternity. In the Song of Solomon, the bride speaks, saying: “I amblack.” The

word translated “black” should be “the blackest of black.” In Hebrew there are no superlatives or

comparative. To emphasize the comparative, a word must be repeated, as “black-black.” To make it

superlative, the word must be repeated three times, such as “holy, holy, holy,” as there is no way to say

“holiest” in Hebrew. The world “black” spoken by the bride should be repeated to the nth degree. “I am

black, but comely O daughters of Jerusalem, black like the curtains of Solomon.” Here, black is the

incomprehensible mystery, and in her dream she did not understand it. Then one appears who she least

expected to be able to interpret it, but one who was present, by invitation, at the last supper. Don’t discount


Now, this vision was preceded by a conversation followingmy last lecture, when this lady, knowing she had

been impregnated by the Holy Spirit, said to her friend: “What am I going to do for the next thirty years?”

And her friend replied: “What are you talking about? Did he not tell you that you are blessed? What’s thirty

years when you have been waiting throughout eternity to reach this point in time? How can you be

concerned, when you know that in just thirty years you will depart this world and enter an entirely different

age?” That conversation prompted the vision which she did not understand, because I was dressed in black

as I revealed the mystery of mysteries. “I am black, but comely O daughters of Jerusalem, black as the

curtains of Solomon.” This is the blackest of black, containing divine silence, eternity, and an

incomprehensible secret which Dorothy knew (but don’t forget:Dorothy was present by invitation to the last


Another lady who is here tonight shared this experience with me, saying: “In my dream I was talking to two

people, when one looked at me and said: ‘How far is it?’ to which I replied: ‘It is only thirty minutes away’

and awoke.”

This lady has conceived of the Holy Spirit and is now waiting – not minutes, miles, or hours, but thirty years

for the child to be born. Again I will say: what does it matter? She told me that all through her life she has

never wanted things and knows that is why she has never accumulated worldly possessions. Hers has been a

questingmind, always seeking, always searching for the cause of life. May I tell her that at this moment she is

richer than the richest man in the world, for she has been selected to receive the imprint, receive the gift of

God Himself.

We came out from the Father, containing within ourselves the ovum (all that is necessary to become the

Father). Walking through the centuries we have carried our egg, awaiting that moment in time when the egg is

fertilized. One who is a Son of God by nature, having been born for that purpose, will be used in that

capacity so that others may become sons of God by grace. It is all supernaturally done. Some remember

when the union took place, but it is not experienced on this level at all.

In the meanwhile don’t neglect the law of God which is:An assumption will harden into fact. If an assumption

creates its own reality then there is no such thing as fiction. I may forget what I assumed today and when it

appears I may not recognize my own harvest, but it could not enter my world had I not brought it in by an

imaginal act.

Tonight some unknown author is writing a story in order to pay the rent. The story may not sell, but for a

moment he will lose himself in its creation, and when his story comes to pass in the tomorrows, those whose

lives will be touched will not recognize his harvest. Tonight the movie, “A Night to Remember” will be shown

on television. Although the movie was recently made, it is based upon the sinking of the Titanic in 1912,

which duplicated a book called Futility, written in 1898. In the novel, a ship filled with the rich and

complacent was on its maiden voyage, when it sank on an iceberg in the Atlantic. Fourteen years later the

White Star Line built a duplicate of the imaginary ship described in the book, filled it with the rich and

complacent, where it sank on its maiden voyage on an iceberg in the Atlantic. And people say there is fiction?

No, there is no fiction.

There is not a moment in time when imagination is not acting, causing the events of the world. You may not

remember your thoughts and deny you have anything to do with what you are reaping, but you can only

harvest what you plant. Kennedy’s death was a violent action, but I am told that the Kennedys had

apparently felt they were destined to lose their sons this way. As a family they entertained this sense of

martyrdom, this sense of violence which caused it to come to pass. There are no accidents; as a man sows,

he reaps. You are free as the wind to imagine anything, but you must be willing to pay the price, for you will

reap the results. Imagining yourself to be a good author you can write a horrible story of hate and violence

and reap the results, for the hate you write about goes out and brings the violence back into your own being.

A friend recently told me that when he was about nine years old he received a Ouija board. One day he

asked the board: “Who am I” and it spelled out the word “Christ.” Believing the board completely, he

thought he was Jesus reincarnated, but when he told his minister (who was of the high church of the Episcopal

world) he was immediately educated out of what they called “neurotic sin.” Believing he had sinned because

of entertaining the thought, he prayed for a great sacrament and complete absolution of this sin, when a

marvelous vision descended upon himrevealing an altar with everything attached.

These so-called “wise” people, who go around with their long robes and conduct a service in Latin which no

one understands, should read scripture. Paul said: “I would rather speak five words that can be understood

than ten thousand words in an unknown tongue.” If you want to speak Latin go to the Vatican, but don’t

come here where very few people understand one word outside of English (and even that poorly) and speak

in an unknown tongue. Speak the tongue in which you were born that youmay be understood, or be silent.

This lad was educated out of his belief when he should have continued in it, as Christ in him is his hope of

glory. Scripture urges you to examine yourself, to test yourself and see if Jesus Christ is now in you. And if all

things are made by himand without himis not a thingmade that is made, who is he? I’ll tell you who he is. He

is your own wonderful human imagination. How do I know this to be true? By imagining a state, remaining

faithful to it and watching it come to pass inmy world. Believing that God makes all things, I made my desired

state alive and can now trace its maker back to my imagination.

Now I know thatMan is all Imagination, and God is Man and exists in us and we in Him. The EternalBody

of Man is the Imagination and that is Jesus, the divine body of which we are His members. I know this

because ifHe makes all things and I imagine, remain faithful to my imaginal state and it happens. I have found

him, not as someone divorced fromme, but as my own wonderful human imagination.

So that little planchette, moved by this lad’s own unconscious motion, revealed his true identity; yet the

so-called wise men called it neurotic sin. I know exactly what he went through, for I was raised in the low

church of the Episcopal world and my mother used to tell me that the priests were the wisest men in the

world. I believed her until I became a man and the visions began to appear within me. Then I realized how

very stupid they really are. Throughout the centuries they have fooled the people into believing they are so

wise because they can speak a little phrase in Latin. But when you ask themto explain the verse I spoke of

tonight: “I came out from the Father and came into the world, again I am leaving the world and going to the

Father” they give you only the literalmeaning and say that a glorious being came out fromthe Father.

“Where?” you ask, and they reply: “Don’t ask questions, my son.”

“He came out in what way?”

“Out of our holy blessed mother.”

“In what manner did he do it?”

Again, “Don’t ask questions, my son. This is the great secret of the church.”

At the end of your conversation you will discover you have been talking to one who doesn’t know the

answers, so he gives you all kinds of confused thoughts to bewilder you. During my thirty years on the

platform I have talked with them time and time again. They stand open-mouthed and bewildered as I speak

fromexperience, while they speak fromtheory. They call it blasphemy when I tell themI have found the Son

ofGod who called me Father, yet I see themas blind leaders of the blind, as foretold in scripture.

I tell you: your own wonderful human imagination is Jesus Christ. There never was another and there never

will be another. One day He will awaken in you and all that is said of him will be experienced by you in the

first person present tense; and may I tell you: far from being ashamed, you will be thrilled beyond measure.

All you have ever done as a man in this world ofmortality of which you are ashamed will be wiped clean. It is

necessary for you to go through the muck and mire of this world so that this seed may erupt. And when it

does you are one with God, who is perfect, and your entire past is wiped out as though it never were.

There is no such thing as earning your way into heaven. Heaven is not earned; it is a gift. When you hear

salvation’s story and believe it, the kingdom will unveil itself from within, and from that moment on no man,

regardless of his position in the secular world, can stand before you and make you feel unimportant. You will

simply ignore his words, knowing that although he may sit on a throne he does not know who he is. And

tomorrow if he leaves this world he will find himself in a world just like this, in an environment best suited for

the work yet to be done in him, while you – unknown by the world – will instantly possess your immortal

garment and mortality will be blotted out by light.

In the 5th chapter of 2 Corinthians, Paul is speaking to those he addressed when he said: “We groan in this

body waiting for our heavenly body,” as he was hoping spiritual birth would come to them before death

appears. Death here in the twenty-eighth year would leave you still unclothed in a spiritual sense, as you

would still have two more years to go to be clothed with immortality. A lady here tonight is not yet

twenty-eight, but her memory returned to another age, another time, and she said: “I recall you vividly. You

haven’t changed. You still have the same face, the same voice. You told me than about a father and a son

and I didn’t understand.”

I tell you: throughout the night I move through sections of time, for I have other sheep that are not of this

body. I must gather themall into one fold before I can return to the Father as the Father. This is my story.

You dwell upon it and don’t neglect the principle of your wonderful imagination. Use it lovingly on behalf of

everything, for when you do, you are using it on yourself, as there is no other. The world is yourself pushed

out. Imagine and then drop it. You don’t have to burst a blood vessel, call the “right” people, or do the

“right” thing in order to succeed. All you need do is assume you are now what you want to be. Remain

faithful to that assumption and in a way that no one knows you will become it. Then try it again and again, and

while you are about your Father’s business working this principle, another work, unknown to the world, is

taking place in you, preparing you for the fullness of time when the egg you have been carrying throughout the

centuries is fertilized. Then, thirty years later, it erupts and all that is said of Christ is experienced in a

personal, most intimate manner.

Now let us go into the silence.

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